Ninth Flake [text]

[defyingfrigidity]

[This is new: a post from Elsa not in video. Normally she tries to use it as often as she can, since it helps her with talking to people without the intimidation of being face-to-face in person. But she's feeling kind of... not quite upset, but not like herself today. She'd rather not let that bleed into the video and audio, so for now, text it is.]

I just noticed the anniversary of a very important event in my life is almost here. The thing itself wasn't so bad - it was certainly something to celebrate at least - but the events that happened during and after it... they were more than a bit terrible.

[Yeah she's being kind of vague here. But only because she hasn't really told anyone about the whole "Eternal Winter" thing. And she's.... still somewhat afraid to. People know about what happened with Anna, yes, but if they knew she'd almost sentenced her entire kingdom to an eternal winter of suffering... would they act different towards her then?]

Even so, I... look back somewhat fondly on those days, despite the bad things that happened. Because even though bad things happened, a lot of good came out of it in the end.

Still... is that odd?

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[awesmazings]

Naah, I don't think so. The bad times help you appreciate the good times, yeah? And everybody has bad times every once and a while. I think the important thing is to remember that the bad times aren't gonna last forever. You'll be able to look back on them later and see how the bad times ended up becoming good, like you're doing now!

[defyingfrigidity]

But do other people have "bad times" that wind up hurting other people?

[awesmazings]

Probably not as often as some other bad times, but...yeah, it happens. But time really does help with that sort of thing, I think. It won't make it go away, but it'll hurt less.

[defyingfrigidity]

... Is there any at all way to make it go away?

[awesmazings]

...not totally.

[A year ago, Jimmy might have said yes.]

If it's something small, then sure! It's easier to let yourself forget about little things like that. But bigger things...those can be tough, yankow? And if you can look back on it fondly, then I dunno if I'd wanna just completely forget about it.

[History repeats itself, and all that.]

[defyingfrigidity]

That's exactly what I'm having trouble with. The things that happened... they're big. Very big. It affected my entire kingdom. That's why it feels a bit complicated, to me...

[awesmazings]

Yeah, I get you. I don't think that'll be something you can just forget about, 'specially not totally. I mean, I don't know what happened, but I know some things have happened in my life like that.

Do you want to be able to forget about it?

[defyingfrigidity]

... It depends. If I can only forget the entire event? I... suppose not. But if I can forget bits and pieces? It would be very tempting to say yes.

But losing memories... I've seen that happen. And it hurts, seeing someone unable to remember something the way it was. I don't know if I'd wand others to feel that way when looking at me.

[Because that's a whole other feeling of immense guilt right there....]

[awesmazings]

Yeah...as much as it hurts, sometimes you're really not going to be able to let those memories go. But I don't think that's necessarily a bad thing, either.

It sounds like that you really want what's best for people, yeah? You just gotta remember what's best for you too. And if it's better for you not to dwell on what happened...then that's what you should try to do. But I don't think anyone's gonna judge you for wanting to forget, either.