Because I want to. When I was growing up... celebrating during the holidays was one of the few things I really, really wanted. It was one of the few things I was tempted to argue about with my parents.

[The first few years, at least. As she grew up, and as she convinced herself more and more that she was a monster and didn't deserve to be around other people... the desire to fight disappeared.]

So yes, I'm doing this for me. Partially. But I'm mainly doing it for my sister.