Ninth Flake [text]

[defyingfrigidity]

[This is new: a post from Elsa not in video. Normally she tries to use it as often as she can, since it helps her with talking to people without the intimidation of being face-to-face in person. But she's feeling kind of... not quite upset, but not like herself today. She'd rather not let that bleed into the video and audio, so for now, text it is.]

I just noticed the anniversary of a very important event in my life is almost here. The thing itself wasn't so bad - it was certainly something to celebrate at least - but the events that happened during and after it... they were more than a bit terrible.

[Yeah she's being kind of vague here. But only because she hasn't really told anyone about the whole "Eternal Winter" thing. And she's.... still somewhat afraid to. People know about what happened with Anna, yes, but if they knew she'd almost sentenced her entire kingdom to an eternal winter of suffering... would they act different towards her then?]

Even so, I... look back somewhat fondly on those days, despite the bad things that happened. Because even though bad things happened, a lot of good came out of it in the end.

Still... is that odd?

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[soundmind]

My best friend nearly died and still has a massive scar on his chest because of my mistakes.

I don't like to talk about it, I don't even like to look at it.

But it happened, and that ended up being necessary to teach us how to work together more effectively...and to be better friends.

I don't see bad things happening as the worst thing that can ever be, those things just end up being part of you and changing you little by little. I don't know what happened to you, Miss, and I won't tell you how to process it just because I think of it this way, but you came out of it a stronger person I'm guessing, and closer to your loved ones.

[defyingfrigidity]

[Gee, that... sure sounds a bit familiar, doesn't it...]

Sometimes I wonder, though. If I really did grow from it.

Things changed, yes, and many of them for the better, but... that I still have to question matter such as this makes me feel like I didn't grow much at all.

[soundmind]

Well...can you compare how you were then to how you are now and see differences? That's the first question you should ask yourself. How you're handling any current problems might become clearer--not that I'm going to push learning about your current situation.