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defyingfrigidity) wrote2013-01-31 11:28 am
defyingfrigidity) wrote2013-01-31 11:28 am
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And everything's fine in the end, no one's even really dead.
Well, that's good then! I'm sure that will be enough to calm them down if any do get frightened.
[... Or so she assumes. Elsa's not really used to entertaining kids.]
[... Or so she assumes. Elsa's not really used to entertaining kids.]
[ Asami deflates a little bit. ]
I know how that goes.
[ She should probably be in therapy after what happened with Dad... ]
Have you... talked to Lightning, at all?
[ Not that Asami's sure she ought to even suggest it. From her perspective, she's the one who owes the apology. ]
[ But she's not going to voice that, right now. ]
I know how that goes.
[ She should probably be in therapy after what happened with Dad... ]
Have you... talked to Lightning, at all?
[ Not that Asami's sure she ought to even suggest it. From her perspective, she's the one who owes the apology. ]
[ But she's not going to voice that, right now. ]
I've tried. But it never really goes anywhere. She makes sure the topic stays on something pointless, like our pokemon or something like that.
One time she did bring what happened up, but I just made her angry, so... I try to avoid the subject as much as possible, now.
[And she doesn't even know how to start apologizing for THAT. She didn't think she did anything wrong....]
One time she did bring what happened up, but I just made her angry, so... I try to avoid the subject as much as possible, now.
[And she doesn't even know how to start apologizing for THAT. She didn't think she did anything wrong....]
[ Asami's lips tighten. ]
Really classy, coming from the person who started it all in the first place.
[ Sorry, Elsa, Asami has baggage and very little patience in this department. The gentleness slips back into her voice when she speaks directly to Elsa, though. ]
This isn't your fault, Elsa. I hope you know that.
Really classy, coming from the person who started it all in the first place.
[ Sorry, Elsa, Asami has baggage and very little patience in this department. The gentleness slips back into her voice when she speaks directly to Elsa, though. ]
This isn't your fault, Elsa. I hope you know that.
What? No!
[Lightning to blame for this???? That's a completely absurd idea!]
She just... asked me to make a choice with something. I tried pushing the choice onto her instead of doing it myself, and she got upset because of that. It's.... understandable that she got upset. It really was my fault.
[Lightning to blame for this???? That's a completely absurd idea!]
She just... asked me to make a choice with something. I tried pushing the choice onto her instead of doing it myself, and she got upset because of that. It's.... understandable that she got upset. It really was my fault.
I read the conversation between you and my Lucario, and I'm here to apologize. For everything I did and everything I put you through since then. I never meant for any of this to happen, It's taken me a long while and for one of my friends to make me see the pain I put you through. The way I acted before and after was cruel to you, and to everyone else involved. I know saying sorry isn't going to make it go away, but it's the only thing I can think of doing that won't put you into an awkward position.
I'm not expecting anything from you, as a friend or otherwise. If you want to burn the bridge and be done with me, I understand. I won't interfere or stop my sister from talking to you and Anna. That's between you three. Don't feel you have to include me in anything you do with her. My sister and I do have separate lives from each other.
You don't have to worry about my feelings for you. I let those go when I realized I needed to make things right. It's all water under the bridge now.
I really am sorry.
[There's no need to reply to this, and if there is a response, it won't be answered.]
I'm not expecting anything from you, as a friend or otherwise. If you want to burn the bridge and be done with me, I understand. I won't interfere or stop my sister from talking to you and Anna. That's between you three. Don't feel you have to include me in anything you do with her. My sister and I do have separate lives from each other.
You don't have to worry about my feelings for you. I let those go when I realized I needed to make things right. It's all water under the bridge now.
I really am sorry.
[There's no need to reply to this, and if there is a response, it won't be answered.]
Yes, and that wasn't considerate to your feelings at all. You weren't obligated to make any choice.
[ Asami sighs and lets her anger drain. ]
I'm sorry, I've... tried to mind my own business, but people shouldn't just thrust their feelings on others. It's selfish. Anyone who knew you at all would have known what a big deal that was, and to just... drop of the radar after that? No. It's not okay.
[ Asami sighs and lets her anger drain. ]
I'm sorry, I've... tried to mind my own business, but people shouldn't just thrust their feelings on others. It's selfish. Anyone who knew you at all would have known what a big deal that was, and to just... drop of the radar after that? No. It's not okay.
[Elsa flinches a little at the anger in Asami's voice, but doesn't say anything. It's not pleasant, having friends be mad at (ex?)friends, but... she's not going to tell Asami she can't be upset about this. That would probably only make things worse.]
But she... isn't that how it works? That you just... tell someone how you feel about them? And not getting a definite answer from them... I can understand why that would be upsetting.
[That's how it worked in the stories, at least; confessions were always grand things that ended with the protagonists hooking up. Elsa realizes that relying on stories for advice on love is a bit silly, but... it's not like she ever had those kinds of talks with her parents.]
It's not as if I completely denied her feelings. I just... didn't know how to react.
But she... isn't that how it works? That you just... tell someone how you feel about them? And not getting a definite answer from them... I can understand why that would be upsetting.
[That's how it worked in the stories, at least; confessions were always grand things that ended with the protagonists hooking up. Elsa realizes that relying on stories for advice on love is a bit silly, but... it's not like she ever had those kinds of talks with her parents.]
It's not as if I completely denied her feelings. I just... didn't know how to react.
In the stories, maybe.
[ Asami says, basically reaffirming Elsa's thoughts. ]
Feelings are really hard. But that doesn't mean that we aren't still responsible for our actions.
[ She's thought about this a lot... ]
It's tactless to just spring a confession like that on someone, but I don't know the whole story, so I can't really say anything, there. But running away and hiding from the unresolved issue that she created only makes it worse for both of you.
[ Asami sighs. ]
I'm not saying that she did something really terrible. Just that this isn't your fault.
[ Asami says, basically reaffirming Elsa's thoughts. ]
Feelings are really hard. But that doesn't mean that we aren't still responsible for our actions.
[ She's thought about this a lot... ]
It's tactless to just spring a confession like that on someone, but I don't know the whole story, so I can't really say anything, there. But running away and hiding from the unresolved issue that she created only makes it worse for both of you.
[ Asami sighs. ]
I'm not saying that she did something really terrible. Just that this isn't your fault.
[Elsa's definitely processing what Asami is saying, and a part of her does want to agree. It's just hard, with the iron grip of guilt still clenched firmly around her heart.]
I'm sorry. What you're saying makes sense, just like you always do. I'm just...
[She sighs, running a hand through her hair. It feels too much like fishing for pity here, but... Asami's never side-eyed her for how she felt before. That shouldn't change now... right?]
It's difficult, breaking away from a mindset where you're always blaming yourself before you blame others.
I'm sorry. What you're saying makes sense, just like you always do. I'm just...
[She sighs, running a hand through her hair. It feels too much like fishing for pity here, but... Asami's never side-eyed her for how she felt before. That shouldn't change now... right?]
It's difficult, breaking away from a mindset where you're always blaming yourself before you blame others.
I know. You don't need to apologize.
[ Asami's had her fair share of insight into Elsa's past. ]
Sometimes you just... need to hear it from someone.
[ Asami's had her fair share of insight into Elsa's past. ]
Sometimes you just... need to hear it from someone.
... I wish I'd had someone like you with me when I was growing up. Or I wish I'd been able to just talk to Anna back then like I talk to you now.
Maybe I would've turned out different. Better.
[It was always you need to do this Elsa and you need to control it no matter how you're feeling Elsa. There weren't really any gentle reassurances when it came to her trying to figure out her powers - and her feelings, as well, with how close the two were intertwined.]
Maybe I would've turned out different. Better.
[It was always you need to do this Elsa and you need to control it no matter how you're feeling Elsa. There weren't really any gentle reassurances when it came to her trying to figure out her powers - and her feelings, as well, with how close the two were intertwined.]
Well, it can be better now.
The first step is just seeing everything for what it is. Seeing past all the... built up muck and false thoughts that have been built up for so long.
The first step is just seeing everything for what it is. Seeing past all the... built up muck and false thoughts that have been built up for so long.
... It'll take a while. A long time, probably. Over a decade's worth of all that built up negativity...
I'm not saying that I don't want to try. I just... don't think things will change all that quickly.
I'm not saying that I don't want to try. I just... don't think things will change all that quickly.
Of course.
[ Asami sighs. ]
I wish you could talk to Korra again... She has some idea of what it's all like, actually. Better than I do, anyway.
[ Asami sighs. ]
I wish you could talk to Korra again... She has some idea of what it's all like, actually. Better than I do, anyway.
I... had a bit of a talk with her, actually. During one of those incidents when my powers returned, she told me about her life growing up. Some things were different, but...
The way she talked, it seems like she and I had quited a bit in common. And as strange as it sounds... that gives me a bit of hope.
[Korra is so strong, so confident in herself and her abilities, and so kind... she's pretty much everything Elsa wants to be. So if she could turn out that way... could Elsa?]
The way she talked, it seems like she and I had quited a bit in common. And as strange as it sounds... that gives me a bit of hope.
[Korra is so strong, so confident in herself and her abilities, and so kind... she's pretty much everything Elsa wants to be. So if she could turn out that way... could Elsa?]
She's been through way more than most people can handle.
[ And somehow come out on the other side even more radiant. ]
I'm glad you at least got to talk while she was here.
[ And somehow come out on the other side even more radiant. ]
I'm glad you at least got to talk while she was here.
So.
[To make things easy, Korra sends the same video message to Asami, Elsa, and Anna.]
I have really ugly scarves for everybody.
[She holds up a jumbled handful of fuzzy colors, blue, red, and green dominant among them.]
There was this Pokemon who knitted a ton of scarves and she was so proud of them that her trainer broadcast a message about it asking if anyone wanted any. There were so many scarves, it's like all she does. So I grabbed us some, because a scarf knitting Pokemon is pretty cool, and they showed up today.
I do not expect anyone to wear them, but I was hoping we could get a picture with them on to show Shiruku. That's the Pokemon that knits. I can't stress how into knitting scarves this Pokemon is.
Iqniq's already claimed mine, clearly they make great gifts for Pokemon.
[And hey, ugly scarves are worth a laugh, plus it's a cute story. Korra thinks they can all use a laugh and something cute.]
Come get your very own, one of a kind, ugly scarf!
[To make things easy, Korra sends the same video message to Asami, Elsa, and Anna.]
I have really ugly scarves for everybody.
[She holds up a jumbled handful of fuzzy colors, blue, red, and green dominant among them.]
There was this Pokemon who knitted a ton of scarves and she was so proud of them that her trainer broadcast a message about it asking if anyone wanted any. There were so many scarves, it's like all she does. So I grabbed us some, because a scarf knitting Pokemon is pretty cool, and they showed up today.
I do not expect anyone to wear them, but I was hoping we could get a picture with them on to show Shiruku. That's the Pokemon that knits. I can't stress how into knitting scarves this Pokemon is.
Iqniq's already claimed mine, clearly they make great gifts for Pokemon.
[And hey, ugly scarves are worth a laugh, plus it's a cute story. Korra thinks they can all use a laugh and something cute.]
Come get your very own, one of a kind, ugly scarf!
...Elsa.
[The message starts with a pause, that's never a good sign.]
I...I'm afraid I don't actually have any advice for you in coping with the loss of your friend. I'm sorry. One would think with loss being my line of work, I'd know all about it, but...even so, to me it's always an inevitable conclusion that I will experience loss.
[...]
Dammit.
[The curse feels strange coming from her.]
I still want to help. Sorry for rambling.
[Click!]
[The message starts with a pause, that's never a good sign.]
I...I'm afraid I don't actually have any advice for you in coping with the loss of your friend. I'm sorry. One would think with loss being my line of work, I'd know all about it, but...even so, to me it's always an inevitable conclusion that I will experience loss.
[...]
Dammit.
[The curse feels strange coming from her.]
I still want to help. Sorry for rambling.
[Click!]
[It isn't long at all until Elsa responds, looking quite a bit concerned.]
Botan, you don't have to apologize! You're doing a lot just by offering comfort to me. [And then her concern fades a bit into a smile.] Besides... you know my sister, don't you? You should know I'm used to rambling.
Botan, you don't have to apologize! You're doing a lot just by offering comfort to me. [And then her concern fades a bit into a smile.] Besides... you know my sister, don't you? You should know I'm used to rambling.
...[A breath.]
Yes, of course. Anna likely already said her piece as well.
[For once Botan doesn't try to smile, she knows it would just look hollow.]
I feel frustrated that I can't do more, I suppose. It's unrealistic since everyone has to go through their cycle of grief, yet...trying to cope with loss here, all I've been able to do is just numb myself to it and pray they're happy where they are now.
[But she knows perfectly well that some of her friends are dead in their own world.]
Yes, of course. Anna likely already said her piece as well.
[For once Botan doesn't try to smile, she knows it would just look hollow.]
I feel frustrated that I can't do more, I suppose. It's unrealistic since everyone has to go through their cycle of grief, yet...trying to cope with loss here, all I've been able to do is just numb myself to it and pray they're happy where they are now.
[But she knows perfectly well that some of her friends are dead in their own world.]
[Ah... her face falls a little at that, but there's definitely a look of sympathy there.]
I understand how that feels. When my parents died, I just tried to ignore those feelings. To just bury them like I buried everything else inside of me, without addressing it or even attempting to cope with it.
But you... at least you're still willing to help people. You still try and hope for the best. An I admire that ability to at least try to be optimistic.
I understand how that feels. When my parents died, I just tried to ignore those feelings. To just bury them like I buried everything else inside of me, without addressing it or even attempting to cope with it.
But you... at least you're still willing to help people. You still try and hope for the best. An I admire that ability to at least try to be optimistic.
If I don't, who will? Humans are so fragile and live such turbulent lives, it's often much easier for them to be negative. [It takes a certain amount of strength to keep going with the idea that everything will be all right in mind, not that Botan would say she's strong for it.]
[...]
Tell me about your friend, I'd like to hear.
[...]
Tell me about your friend, I'd like to hear.
[Elsa would probably argue that. Even if Botan isn't human in her world, she acts just like a human would. So in theory it'd be much easier for her to be negative than positive, and yet....]
... Did you know Asami Sato at all?
... Did you know Asami Sato at all?
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