Ninth Flake [text]

[defyingfrigidity]

[This is new: a post from Elsa not in video. Normally she tries to use it as often as she can, since it helps her with talking to people without the intimidation of being face-to-face in person. But she's feeling kind of... not quite upset, but not like herself today. She'd rather not let that bleed into the video and audio, so for now, text it is.]

I just noticed the anniversary of a very important event in my life is almost here. The thing itself wasn't so bad - it was certainly something to celebrate at least - but the events that happened during and after it... they were more than a bit terrible.

[Yeah she's being kind of vague here. But only because she hasn't really told anyone about the whole "Eternal Winter" thing. And she's.... still somewhat afraid to. People know about what happened with Anna, yes, but if they knew she'd almost sentenced her entire kingdom to an eternal winter of suffering... would they act different towards her then?]

Even so, I... look back somewhat fondly on those days, despite the bad things that happened. Because even though bad things happened, a lot of good came out of it in the end.

Still... is that odd?

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[defyingfrigidity]

It really would, Anna...

[Elsa's just. Still giggling a bit.]

Good thing we have a council that could talk you out of doing things like that...

[loveisanopendoor]

Pssh, what do they know? They would clearly see my genius logic if they knew what was good for them!

[nullorvoid]

I don't think it sounds ridiculous at all, it explains a lot actually. Guilt stuff is weird, it tends to hit people in all sorts of weird ways. I don't know, I guess my problem a lot of the time is not enough guilt which is a whole different can of worms that's probably best not opened all over some stranger on the internet.

I've seen what that sort of stuff does to people in the long run though and it's really not good, I'm not saying you should just get over it or anything but it might be good to keep someone around that you can talk to about this sort of stuff before it eats you alive, you know?

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[ladywithnovoice]

No, that's normal. I mean, it's easy to let bad events bleed into good events even if they're only vaguely related. But sometimes... You just have to find the good and focus on that.

It's how a lot of people keep going.

[defyingfrigidity]

Anna, they were the ones who more or less ran the kingdom before I was of age. If anything, they know more than I do!

[Thanks to Anna's antics, Elsa is still laughing, so the tender subject doesn't seem to bring her mood down at all...!]

[friendyousohard]

I thought it might be. Just remember to use the lessons you learned from what you've been through, and rule well and wisely, and I'm certain your people will think as highly of you. Even if it takes some time to move on.

[loveisanopendoor]

Oh, please, no one knows more than you do. That's a just plain silly suggestion if I ever heard one!

[silentscales]

I get caught up in thinking about the bad some times. I try not to, says Gaskell.

[defyingfrigidity]

Your faith in me never fails to surprise me, Anna.

[She laughs again, but it's... a bit more subdued this time.]

But honestly, what I didn't learn about how to rule a kingdom from papa I learned from them. They're much wiser than you seem to be giving them credit for.

[envy_the_sinners]

That is different. I doubt that you set out to gain this personal peace from these events. Correct?

[defyingfrigidity]

... How do you avoid thinking about the bad things?

[Because sometimes it's hard for her to not think about negative things...]

[defyingfrigidity]

Oh, that much I know. I was actually... much worse off than I was now, this time last year. But ever since my sister and I reconciled over some things in our past, it's almost like she refuses to leave me alone for too long. I consider that a good thing, since she's always willing to talk.

But sometimes... I think talking to other people is better, like now. It was tough to listen, but it still helped. Talking about different experiences helps just as much as someone close to you always listening to you when you need it does.