Ninth Flake [text]

[defyingfrigidity]

[This is new: a post from Elsa not in video. Normally she tries to use it as often as she can, since it helps her with talking to people without the intimidation of being face-to-face in person. But she's feeling kind of... not quite upset, but not like herself today. She'd rather not let that bleed into the video and audio, so for now, text it is.]

I just noticed the anniversary of a very important event in my life is almost here. The thing itself wasn't so bad - it was certainly something to celebrate at least - but the events that happened during and after it... they were more than a bit terrible.

[Yeah she's being kind of vague here. But only because she hasn't really told anyone about the whole "Eternal Winter" thing. And she's.... still somewhat afraid to. People know about what happened with Anna, yes, but if they knew she'd almost sentenced her entire kingdom to an eternal winter of suffering... would they act different towards her then?]

Even so, I... look back somewhat fondly on those days, despite the bad things that happened. Because even though bad things happened, a lot of good came out of it in the end.

Still... is that odd?

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[defyingfrigidity]

I think so, yes. I'm still happy with something that hurt others, even if I only hurt them on accident. That... that can't be right...

[stonebones]

I've done horrible things too, when I couldn't control my powers. People died...

But because of that I was able to meet some really nice people who helped me. I don't know what I'd do without them.

[He'd see them again soon, hopefully...]

...I can never make up for what I've done. Even so, without all that happening, I would have never met my friends. It might not be okay but that's how it is. We both have to keep going, you know?

[defyingfrigidity]

Right...

... Did the people who helped you.... did they forgive you, for what you did?

[stonebones]

They weren't around for some of it. Sometimes I would wonder if they would leave me if they had been... But I don't think so. That wouldn't be like them.

When it happened again, they were the ones who told me it was okay. That I saved them. They didn't forgive me because it didn't even occur to them even though what I did was so awful.