Thirteenth Flake [Text]

[defyingfrigidity]

[Normally, Elsa doesn't care for making text posts. Video helps her be more open people, and even after over a year here, she could always use more help with that! But there are still rare occasions where she just... doesn't trust her emotions to stay under control. So text it is for those days.]

For those of you who have been here for quite a while now:
Is there... any good way to cope with people from other worlds leaving?
I know that, when people from your own world leave, you can be comforted in the fact that you'll see them again when you return home.

But... what about those from other worlds?
They're gone, and unless you remain here for long enough that you return, you'll never see them again.
And if they're important to you, just as much as the people from your own world...

How can you get over the disappearance of someone like that?

Comments

[loveisanopendoor]

[ Yeah, she can, uh, relate to this. Not that she's going to bring that up. And not that she's going to let Elsa feel guilty about that again. One thing at a time. ]

Yeah. But I mean, I kinda think that's part of life too, y'know? Tomorrow's always a bit of a mystery. Which is kinda why you always want to make sure today's the best it can be, right? So that way you don't have any regrets or anything. If you left tomorrow, I'd be devastated, for sure. But, knowing that we spent this time together sitting in your room and eating chocolate and having a heart-to-heart...well, I'd at least be happy that the last time I got to spend with you was so nice, y'know?

[defyingfrigidity]

[That gets a smile out of Elsa as she leans a bit against her sister. It's not a particularly bright smile, but anything is good enough for now.]

We're different, though. We know for certain that we'll see each other again, even if it takes a while for the other one of us to return home. But those of us from other worlds... they might never return, or they might... [her smile fades.] They might not remember their time here. Which might be just as bad.

[loveisanopendoor]

Ugh, don't get me started. I try not to think about that. If I woke up one day and I was back in Arendelle and I left poor Nonon all alone and I didn't even know it...

[ It'd just be way too sad. ]

Yeah, I'm...hoping that's not the case. I mean, obviously I couldn't tell you for sure, but...

[defyingfrigidity]

... Yeah.

[Elsa just. Lets out a little shudder as she thinks about it.]

To be honest, if that was the case? If she came back and didn't remember anything? I think I would've preferred it if she stayed in her own world.

[Aaand then her shoulders sag with guilt because wow does that sound selfish or what? Ugh, what's wrong with her...]

[loveisanopendoor]

[ Yeah, it doesn't fill Anna with warm fuzzies either. It'd break her poor little pink sweetheart's heart, and she's lost too many people already. That'd be the last thing she needs. So...well, now she'll just stretch a bit. If she's judging Elsa at all, it's definitely not apparent from her expression or her voice. ]

I bet it'd be a little weird talking to someone you were so close with, knowing they don't remember all the stuff you guys did together.

[ Again. ]

You wouldn't want to try again?

[defyingfrigidity]

[Another cringe. Geez, this is really hitting close to home for Anna. She wished they could change the subject, but Elsa knew Anna wouldn't let her do that.]

I don't know. ... [Almost unconsciously, Elsa reaches up and curls her fingers into the fabric of her shirt, over her heart.] I'd be too scared. What if things weren't like how they were before?

[loveisanopendoor]

I bet it would be kinda scary...I can't imagine having to deal with that. It'd be almost like talking to a stranger that you know a lot about already...

But, um, also, I think that avoiding her if she did come back would hurt more. It'd hurt the both of you, really.

[defyingfrigidity]

Believe me, Anna. I've learned my lesson when it comes to trying to avoid people.

[She can't promise she wouldn't, but... she'd make an effort not to, at least. That's something.]

But... I don't know. I might, at first. Not all the time, I don't think I could ignore someone important to me like that anymore... [She shakes her head, pressing her cheek against Anna's shoulder.] I just don't know how to handle a situation like that.

[loveisanopendoor]

I would guess that's the sort of thing that you'd have to just take one day at a time...

[ She twirls Elsa's hair, just a bit...it's still crazy seeing it so ruffly, even though they've spent so much time here. ]

I wish I could help more, honestly.

[defyingfrigidity]

[Okay, that gets a laugh out of Elsa, and she nudges Anna's shoulder with her own.]

What are you talking about? You're doing so much for me now, Anna. You know how hard it is for me to talk about how I feel sometimes, but you're patient enough to let me get things out at my own pace, and you're letting me lean on you physically and emotionally.

That's what I needed most right now, I think.

[loveisanopendoor]

Well, what else are sisters for, right? You know you can come to me anytime you need me, after all. I'm not the type to let you deal with a problem on your own.

[defyingfrigidity]

Right. And you wouldn't give me a choice in the matter if I tried to protest.

[That's said with the utmost affection, of course.]

[loveisanopendoor]

Can you blame me? I mean, heaven knows you wouldn't ever let me deal with anything by myself.

[defyingfrigidity]

Of course not. But you have to admit, your tactics are a little more... "in your face" than mine.

[loveisanopendoor]

You say that as if you don't love every second of it. Subtlety's not my style.

[defyingfrigidity]

Oh, I never said I didn't! But Anna, sometimes I doubt you even know the meaning of that word...

[loveisanopendoor]

Do you think I should be a little more? I dunno, I feel like it's a bit less upfront that way!

[defyingfrigidity]

Oh no, not at all! Subtlety is good and all, but in many cases, being upfront is much better.

Besides... [Anna will get another nudge to her side, but Elsa's smile is soft, rather than playful.] I would never ask you to stop being you. I'd never want to change anything about my wonderful little sister.