Queen ❅ Elsa (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
defyingfrigidity) wrote2016-03-18 02:39 pm
defyingfrigidity) wrote2016-03-18 02:39 pm
Thirteenth Flake [Text]
[Normally, Elsa doesn't care for making text posts. Video helps her be more open people, and even after over a year here, she could always use more help with that! But there are still rare occasions where she just... doesn't trust her emotions to stay under control. So text it is for those days.]
For those of you who have been here for quite a while now:
Is there... any good way to cope with people from other worlds leaving?
I know that, when people from your own world leave, you can be comforted in the fact that you'll see them again when you return home.
But... what about those from other worlds?
They're gone, and unless you remain here for long enough that you return, you'll never see them again.
And if they're important to you, just as much as the people from your own world...
How can you get over the disappearance of someone like that?
For those of you who have been here for quite a while now:
Is there... any good way to cope with people from other worlds leaving?
I know that, when people from your own world leave, you can be comforted in the fact that you'll see them again when you return home.
But... what about those from other worlds?
They're gone, and unless you remain here for long enough that you return, you'll never see them again.
And if they're important to you, just as much as the people from your own world...
How can you get over the disappearance of someone like that?
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Um...I think it'd be a little easier if we knew what it was like when we go back, but, I think that you have every right to be sad. I mean, someone you really cared about was there one day and just kinda left the next...anyone would be upset over that, really. Even if they think it's better that way, I mean, some people don't always know what's best for themselves for one reason or another...
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It's just... I wish she was here. That's why I feel awful.
[Ugh, even after all this time, she's so bad at talking about her feelings...]
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'Cause I don't think that's necessarily the case. Being homesick is one thing, but, wanting to go back and let go of everything here is another entirely, right? I'm sure if she had the option to, like, go back and visit, she'd do that and probably see if you wanted to come along, too.
I wish you had gotten a proper goodbye, though, y'know..?
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Anna...
[No. She can't apologize. Anna's made it clear by now that, despite Elsa objecting to it, she has nothing to apologize for. So she sighs, forcing herself to brush the subject off, and hods.]
That's it, exactly. It would still hurt, knowing that she was leaving and that I might never see her again. But... I think it would hurt less if I actually got to say goodbye. If there could have been just one last proper moment together...
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Yeah. But I mean, I kinda think that's part of life too, y'know? Tomorrow's always a bit of a mystery. Which is kinda why you always want to make sure today's the best it can be, right? So that way you don't have any regrets or anything. If you left tomorrow, I'd be devastated, for sure. But, knowing that we spent this time together sitting in your room and eating chocolate and having a heart-to-heart...well, I'd at least be happy that the last time I got to spend with you was so nice, y'know?
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We're different, though. We know for certain that we'll see each other again, even if it takes a while for the other one of us to return home. But those of us from other worlds... they might never return, or they might... [her smile fades.] They might not remember their time here. Which might be just as bad.
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[ It'd just be way too sad. ]
Yeah, I'm...hoping that's not the case. I mean, obviously I couldn't tell you for sure, but...
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[Elsa just. Lets out a little shudder as she thinks about it.]
To be honest, if that was the case? If she came back and didn't remember anything? I think I would've preferred it if she stayed in her own world.
[Aaand then her shoulders sag with guilt because wow does that sound selfish or what? Ugh, what's wrong with her...]
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I bet it'd be a little weird talking to someone you were so close with, knowing they don't remember all the stuff you guys did together.
[ Again. ]
You wouldn't want to try again?
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I don't know. ... [Almost unconsciously, Elsa reaches up and curls her fingers into the fabric of her shirt, over her heart.] I'd be too scared. What if things weren't like how they were before?
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But, um, also, I think that avoiding her if she did come back would hurt more. It'd hurt the both of you, really.
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[She can't promise she wouldn't, but... she'd make an effort not to, at least. That's something.]
But... I don't know. I might, at first. Not all the time, I don't think I could ignore someone important to me like that anymore... [She shakes her head, pressing her cheek against Anna's shoulder.] I just don't know how to handle a situation like that.
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[ She twirls Elsa's hair, just a bit...it's still crazy seeing it so ruffly, even though they've spent so much time here. ]
I wish I could help more, honestly.
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What are you talking about? You're doing so much for me now, Anna. You know how hard it is for me to talk about how I feel sometimes, but you're patient enough to let me get things out at my own pace, and you're letting me lean on you physically and emotionally.
That's what I needed most right now, I think.
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[That's said with the utmost affection, of course.]
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Besides... [Anna will get another nudge to her side, but Elsa's smile is soft, rather than playful.] I would never ask you to stop being you. I'd never want to change anything about my wonderful little sister.