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Thirteenth Flake [Text]

[Normally, Elsa doesn't care for making text posts. Video helps her be more open people, and even after over a year here, she could always use more help with that! But there are still rare occasions where she just... doesn't trust her emotions to stay under control. So text it is for those days.]

For those of you who have been here for quite a while now:
Is there... any good way to cope with people from other worlds leaving?
I know that, when people from your own world leave, you can be comforted in the fact that you'll see them again when you return home.

But... what about those from other worlds?
They're gone, and unless you remain here for long enough that you return, you'll never see them again.
And if they're important to you, just as much as the people from your own world...

How can you get over the disappearance of someone like that?

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[Anna doesn't get a response to that text. Well, not a text response, that is. Instead, she'll get Elsa opening her door, looking very tired - and possibly recovering from crying, if the slight redness in her eyes is anything to go by - but attempting a half-hearted smile anyway.]

I don't lock my door anymore, Anna. You know that. If you wanted to lecture me, you can do it to my face now.

[She tries to sound amused, but... it's not really working right now.]

It wasn't a lecture! I thought it was pretty solid advice!

[ She does have chocolate in her hands, but, first things first is pulling Elsa into the biggest hug and that's not optional in the slightest. ]

But I mean, I never was the best with stuff like that.

[Elsa doesn't fight the hug at all. In fact, she might be clinging extra-tight to Anna right now. She doesn't cry, like she obviously was before, because she may have changed a lot over the past year and a half, but she still has trouble letting people see her like that.]

Are you kidding? You're great at it. Much better than I am, at least.

I think you're pretty good! I mean, look, I don't think you should be talking down on yourself in general, but...

[ She ruffles her sister's hair, just a bit.. ]

Come on, sit down with me. You shouldn't be alone right now.

[Elsa huffs a little - darn it, she's the big sister! Hair-ruffling is her job! - but thankfully doesn't swat Anna's hand away.]

I'm fine, really. [It's almost sad how easily that lie is said.] But I certainly can't say no to you, so...

[She steps back, motioning for Anna to come in.]

[ TODAY SHE GETS TO BE THE BIGGER SISTER OKAY AND YOU GOTTA DEAL WITH IT ]

It doesn't sound like you're fine. Or look like it. And you know you can't hide anything from me. I find everything out one way or another! I'll have you know I have very, very powerful psychic powers that go off whenever you're sad or lonely!

[Okay, that gets Elsa to laugh - albeit a pretty tired-sounding laugh - and prods Anna in the side.]

Under normal circumstances, I'd be inclined to believe you. But how do you explain that in a land where none of our powers even work?

Maybe it's one of those weekends where we all got our powers back? Who knows, right?

[ She pokes her right back! ]

Though, probably not, 'cause it'd be really cold in here if that was the case.

[ She leans right on her hard now... ]

[Elsa... can't help but look a little guilty, there.]

... I... can't deny that I'd be making a huge mess of everything, if our powers were indeed back...

It's not a mess. You know how to get them under control, at least. I'd like to think that if I hugged you, it'd at least get a little bit warmer.

Here, eat some chocolate, it always helps me when I'm stressed out.

Well, yes, but... that's mostly your doing, you know. You're the one that's able to calm me down enough to even get ahold of myself.

[But Elsa's smile fades as she says that, and with a sigh, she takes the offered chocolate, sitting at the edge of her bed and staring down at it.]

I'm not stressed, I just.... I don't really know how exactly to feel right now.

Well, I can't imagine it wouldn't be complicated...

[ Don't mind if she breaks off a piece for herself and starts to fiddle around with it a bit... ]

But what's your gut telling you to feel? If your head and your heart are at odds, I'd go with your heart. That's what I always say to myself.

I don't know... that's the problem. It's just... a bunch of negative things, all fighting to stand up front. And it's such a mess that it's hard to pinpoint what's what.

I guess that's so...maybe it'd be better to just kind of get it out all at once, then? If it's a whole bunch of badbrain stuff, maybe just venting out the whole thing'd help? That way we can try and take care of all of it at once.

[Another shaky laugh.]

If I let all of it out at once, I think I'd just be a horrible rambling mess. And it wouldn't be like your endearing rambling at all.

Mine isn't endearing! It's embarrassing! And besides, keeping it all bottled up inside doesn't work. What's the worst that can happen?

... I make a fool of myself and feel even worse than I do now?

Elsa, please, make a fool of yourself? Look at who you're talking with here...

[Anna, you should know by now that Elsa won't agree with you when you say bad things about yourself :T]

I've already made a mess of myself with this particular topic. It won't really be anything new.

Even so, just letting it all fester never got anyone anywhere. And you know I could never judge you for anything ever.

[There's a long pause, then with a heavy sigh, Elsa just... seems to slump a bit.]

I just... I don't know where to start right now.

Just take your time with it.

[ She puts her arms around her sister, holding her up so she doesn't melt into the floor with how bad she just started deflating.. ]

Say the first thing that comes to mind and just, y'know. Let it go.

[Another pause. Another sigh. Elsa leans against Anna, her cheek pressing into her sister's shoulder.]

Aside from the obvious, I think a lot of what I'm feeling is just... guilt.

What makes you think that? I mean, it's not like her leaving is your fault or anything. Not like you have anything to feel guilty over.

And if you're feeling like you shouldn't wish she was still here with you, well, that's not anything to feel guilty over, either. I mean, if I woke up tomorrow and you had gone back home, or if Nonon had left or something? God knows I'd be upset about it. It's natural to want the people you care about by your side.

No, no, I don't blame myself for her disappearance. I've been here long enough to know that it's whatever force that brings us here that's at fault for that.

[Elsa not blaming herself for something??? AMAZING]

But... yes. I do feel guilty for being upset. She seemed so homesick lately.... shouldn't I be happy that she's finally where she wants to be?

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